A Sensual Liberation Camp Testimonial
Text published in a Tantric Facebook group in October 2018 about SLC
In August I asked you for help because I came to a point in my relationship where I didn’t feel any sexual attraction anymore. Now I want to share what has happened since....
3 months ago I was at a point in my life where I didn’t know how to proceed. I felt empty, not alive without passion for anything. The physical attraction to my 3 year relationship partner was gone and we were seeing a couple therapist.
Now after 3 months of practicing tantra and attending a 2 week sensual liberation camp in Bali nothing much on the outside has changed - but I feel very different about it.
During the 2 weeks at the camp amazing things happened.
We would usually start our days there at 5am before sunrise with 1 hour of exercises and meditation. During the day we sometimes practiced, other times we would just sit and talk or enjoy the beautiful island in Bali we were on. 3 amazing female “placeholders” joined me at the camp to practice with me under the supervision and lead of Michael.
Our nights were filled with Poojas of many hours often past midnight.
Usually they would involve the placeholders and most of the times they were performed naked. One of my favorite pooja’s involved the 5 senses. I was i.e. smelling a placeholder all over their body. And since the smell is my most intense sense I totally loved it. At the same time the placeholder had to perform a matching activity, in this case Mula Bandha.
Another pooja would include joint breathing patterns with specific mantras.
The interesting part about the poojas is that mostly Michael didn’t explain what they are for. All he said was to wait and see what would happen. I liked that “non-direct approach” very much since it also took away my ambition to get somewhere. But instead just observe my feelings and being. And be surprised by the change.
Michael is a fantastic person, teacher and friend. He can read people so well. I always felt that he knew what I needed next and also how I felt. I could feel that he cared about me and I could feel his love. For me, for people in general.
It is also very inspiring to see how he deals with foreign people in i.e. a coffee shop. His attitude and way of being let people trust him quickly, made them laugh, or just connect with him in a way they usually might not.
So what were some of the amazing things that happened there?
First I felt that my sexual energy came back to me in a way I haven’t felt it for many years.
I also recognized that I had moved too much into my female energy and lost my strong and stable masculine energy. That came back slowly and it felt so good and natural...
During the third night there I had a dream and I remember waking up while the dream would still continue for a few moments. There my grandmother said one sentence to me: “don’t be scared, just let it flow”. I remember that I was so touched by this that the tears started to flow. Having trust in life itself and the flow of life was such a good image I wanted to hold on to.
After the first week I had my first inner orgasm without ejaculation during sex. I didn’t do any technique, nothing. It just happened - and it was mindblowing.
During the two weeks I also noticed that I only express a few of the aspects of my personality. I experienced that I could play with them, without having to chose one over the other. I could be funny and childish in one moment and very serious the other one. Exploring those different aspects and also how they felt made me curious to explore more of those within me.
Now, after the camp, I still don’t exactly know what to do - with my life or my relationship. But I’m much more confident that all will fall in place very soon. And that whatever happens will be great! Don’t be scared - just let it flow...